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Im not okay really really not okay 
Im so poorly and my minds starting to fuck up again 
i need to cope but i don’t think i can 
i am in so much fucking pain and i’m so confused to why i deserve this every fucking day its something new i have to deal with and its not fare
energy levels down even more than yesterday and now i’m getting the flu on top of my tonsillitis its like fuck off , i cant have glandular fever tonsillitis sinusitis ear infections and flu on top of everything else i don’t fucking need it !! 
i just want to be poorly like i was before i don’t want all this i want a life, i’m stuck in a fat shell that doesn’t work.
I feel sad and trapped